My StOrY....

hey hey guys.. wowhavent updated in awhile.. just got back from the beach w/ jackie...it was soo awesome... we laughed so much it was crazy.. first uhh zach and the accent.. then the room.. the music that always plays and the humping.. lmao the jared and micah... such drama jarded busting his ass on our floor many times.. and the sand fight the hide and seek getting chased by security... crazy stuff.. it on jackie and her not needing the laxative... the stinked up b-room... lmao well gotta go later -- lots of love - manda

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: dont u wish

hey guys here a quick update.. me and ansley are talking again and relling up schemes..lol go us.. then i got camp and there is SAM he going to 11th grade and in glass.. he is so cute and is SO funny.. so much better than my left over's that the ugly bitch ..who she think she had soemthing great and please been there done that and not so great... haha they loser any wayz back with sam augh he arlin.. and BOB is so freakin awesome .. cause it is MONEYSHOT!! lol mkay later loser!!! lots of love - manda

Current Mood: awake

hey guys... wow dont even kno where to begin.. well as far as me and aaron go... we talking and stuff.. but i think this is finally the end.. and he even admitted that he willing to give up briana and ansley... shit too bad thats not gunna get me back.. uhhh i fuckin hate him... well whatever his couple of dayz is gunna turn into a couple of years... god i just want so much but it so complicated.. and well me and brandy are having so issues and i dont kno what to do.. god i cant wait till the beach with jackie meet sum new hot guys.. lol well ill update l8ter!! - manda

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: stupid muther fucker

well my life is so in complete shambles.. i lost the one guy that means the most to me.. and i kno he never coming back.. cause im not stupid.. and this shit with kathleen .. oh it not pretty. i just dont understand i give up every damn person for him.. andhe dosent care ..he loves putting everyone be4 me.. i mean god its ridiclous.. except im slowly beganing to accept everything and i dont think he undertands... he can take his time.. fine but he may just take to much time.. he dosent understand that i would try anything in th world to work things out.. but my mom is so fucking pyscho.. i wish she die.. god.. she always think im up to something.. augh he claims he'll never love anyne else. well he prob will and soon he wont have a choice... but i love brand yjust having her today in gym helped more than she'll ever kno...b ut it soo hard with her cause she has a best friend that hate that we re friends and brand y dosent want 2 cosider me a best friend.. wel gotta go.. love ya'll * brandy.. big grishaw -Manders

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: harry potter

These explain way 2 much in the weirdest ways....

"You Were Mine"

I Can't Find A Reason To Let Go
Even Though You've Found A New Love
And She's What Your Dreams Are Made Of
I Can Find A Reason To Hang On
What Went Wrong Can Be Forgiven
Without You, It Ain't Worth Livin' Alone

[Chorus #1:]
Sometimes I Wake Up Crying At Night
And Sometimes I Scream Out Your Name
What Right Does She Have To Take You Away
When For So Long, You Were Mine

I Took Out All The Pictures Of Our Wedding Day
It Was A Time Of Love And Laughter
Happy Ever After
But Even Those Old Pictures Have Begun To Fade
Please Tell Me She's Not Real
And That You're Really Coming Home To Stay

[Chorus #2:]
Sometimes I Wake Up Crying At Night
And Sometimes I Scream Out Your Name
What Right Does She Have To Take Your Heart Away
When For So Long, You Were Mine

I Can Give You Two Good Reasons
To Show You Love's Not Blind
He's Two And She's Four, And You Know They Adore You
So How Can I Tell Them You've Changed Your Mind

[Chorus #2]

I Remember When You Were Mine

I about way to many different people!!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: dixie chicks

well well yea my life definitly been intresting.... well as 4 me and gregg well lilliana dn brandy and briana and tangie know bout that... one day he just better wait..cause as i said we been good friends since the beginning of the year and i would always put our friendship first cause it means alot to me .. we had alot of jokes but ill never understand how he could hurt me the way he did .. that so not the gregg i kno. and well lets say my "best friends" arent that anymore.. one day maybe they grow up and be mature and listen to half the things i say. i mean things soon becum so obivous it not even funny.. it gets sad when the people i thought i could always trust turn out to be the people i cant trust the most.. i mean dont get me wrongi dont hate them .. thats not me .. cause i mean they WERE my BF and we had good times and nothing can ever take that away but dosent mean i dont resent them cause i do.. but i dont let it get to me as lillian says i dont deserve it, no person does. i dont understandhow people can be so cruel sometimes.. i mean it so immature.. and all those lies eventually become funny cause they so untrue it not even close.. only few people really kno and certainly not my "used to be" BF's cause it things ive never told them... i see why now. i cant wait till summer and everything can just GO AWAY!! i so proud of myself though i took my mom's advice and kept my attitude in this whole time..i feel better about myself 4 that.. and well briana been there 4 so much i cant thank her enough.. it okay bri u and ure "sexy dogg" lol.. and brandy she such a great friend i kno i can turn to her 4 anything. everything will be okay doll. Caitlin thank sweetie 4 all the love. AND LILLIAN my homie lol my "husband" with our sexy baby.. then there' BIG TANGIE!! lol getting her groove on with her " cough" man.. lol and sarah doll thank 4 always listening!!

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Jo dee messina!

hey everyone.. well my life so sucks right and only certain of you know why... god why did that happen to me.. why.. why.. why... if only I could rewind time i definitly would.. god i FUCKING HATE LIFE!!!!!!! well 2 to 3 years.. god help me get through those years... i love aaron so much god if only he knew how much i need him which is more than anyone will ever kno.. i cant imagine being without him.. please im begging to all and any god 2 HELP ME!!!!

i love you aaron            - manda

Current Mood: events
Current Music: country

hey DOLLS.. lol wow had and awesome weekend.. fri had my last soccer game and we totally won and my brookie so went into goal.. cause she soo my brookie the rookie.. just kidding.. but the sat we had practice and it was fun we played games and i of course always freakin LOST whats up with that.?? the nwe went 2 the lake and it was so fun.. mm i love them they so awesome.. and then l8ter me and aaron went to a concert at the stadium which was so kool i was dancin .. whoo it was sexy.. the he came back and i totally fixed him a sandwich .. and kate called sounding like ad rugged up frog.. then me adn aaron had fun in WALLY- WORLD..mm well gotta hit thy bed nad get smu rest dolls.. j/k ..well g2g .. LOVE YOU GUYS!!

 I LOVE YOU AARON ..(KID)   -MANDERS

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: WTFF

ohhh.. well had a really badbpast 2 days....Aaron has pissed me off .. this is the worst of his little stunts beside the hurting me with other girls one's.. i really dont think he gets it when i telling him how mad i am.. mad enough 2 want 2 have absolutly nothing 2 do with him ever again.. i see him and i get mad .. he definitly cahnged fro the worse.. he was disrespectful and he knows i dont take that crap so why he did it i dont kno much less understand.. he can go shove his special moment up his ass.. and go fuck with ansley.. i love her 2 death it really isnt her fault.. its his.. she wouldnt hurt me.. i actually trust her,, :( she my only friend beside ASHLEY!! lol  i HATE him.. i wish he just go away and go fuck someone or hisself.. i mean i LOVE him more than anything or anyone.. i could never stop.. but he wone change so he see it eventually and i'll be with someone else...well i found my cutie.. lol my #1 hoe.. GC.. j/k and aaron can go get on with his life with his little buddies he hangs with.. oh let me stop.. well l8ter guys.. -- manda

Current Mood: AJW
Current Music: none

sumtimes i wonder when will things ever go right... i juss want him 2 leave me the fuck alone and no he'll wont kno why cause i cant bring myself 2 tell him... what ma i gunna do if the test go wrong... how am i gunna handle it , what am i gunna do.. i just wanna be with him everyday all day but i cant i wont be able 2 until a long time from now and till then i swear i thik im gunna go crazy i swear i am.. i dont even excite him anymore.. what has happened... everything down hill.. i want him i truely do but he cant ever kno cause otherwise i wouldnt be albe 2 stick 2 it like usual .. and i cant deal with him.. ive given up everything 4 him godamnit and he is out whilei stuck with family or worrying my ass off.. of course god i HATE him.... im gunna find the guy i can truely love one day....

Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: country

hey hey hey guys.. ohhh loving that last entry.. was so in the computer lab with nikki.. doin star testing.. mmm I SO READ BOOKS!!lol ne ways friday was awesome had no practice so went spend all of friday with aaron.. went to the Varisty game then 2 eat then back 2 my house... and i was so fun he was laying his head on my lap and of course so IIIIIIIII could rub his head.. and i kept tickling him.. and i love that laugh when he being tickled..IT'S SO FREAKIN ADORABLE!!! and i also discovered sumthing else..... i feel like im holding him back relationship wise and he say im not but i swear i am he 2 years older he should be with someone his own age.. i mean with my physcho mother and my being younger we cant have the kinda realtionship that he wants.... god but i love him sooo this is HARD!!! well g2g get sum groceries... l8ter

*Manda)

Current Mood: pms'er
Current Music: nada

I LOVE YOU NIKKI BAEZ

hey hey dudes!!! well well past weekend me and Aaron had so much fun of many  different types .. mmm i love being with him.. i never look at a passenger seat or CVCC the same way lol.. we are such a bunch of freaks.. right BRANDY!!! lol and brianna had sum fun 2 lol right brianna?? lol ohh then i got elbowed i nthe damn eye during a soccer game and i have the most awesome black eye EVER dude.. lol hmm cant wait for either this w/e or nxt weekend get 2 spend with aaron again. YA!! and me and Brooke get 2 play BHS monday.. that bitch is going down lol and wayz well gotta go l8ter...

-manda

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: ghostbusters!!!

dude im so like tired.. lol school so freakin hard and i cant memerize this stupid thing 4 romeo and juliet... so freakin hard.. mm i had violin tody and it was fun with my boo-- GINA lol god i still cant get this R&J thing gosh gosh gosh.. well whatever im tired and im going 2 call my baby Aaron.. even though he mean 2... later guys

Mucho love brandy ~n~ Caitlin

-Manda

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Tim Mcgraw

dude i SO LOVe that "switch" song by Will Smith.. it's so awesome.. HE so awesome.. MY HERO!! lol well 2day adn 2 night i had so much fun with Aaron.. we went 2 eat at Crackel Barrel.. it was sooo fun.. us acting like best friends yet lookin like lovers.. lmao and then we went into PetsMart,, which was awesome 2.. we were looking at the kitties.. and making out  near the squeaky toys.. cuz we are so unique.. and us well singing together in the car like a bunch of idoits... but we are so freakin in love it not even funny... and well Bri is had sum fun as well on friday..lol well gotta bizounce.. lmao l8ter guys!!!

---MANDA BOO

Current Mood: aaron
Current Music: rascal Flatts

hey guys.. well well things are going better in the friends area... i def getting close with people i was with be4...weird but gosh cant wait 2 see if the weather good 2morrow so me and ansley can go out and do sumthin.. it be so freakin fun.. lol cause we definitly are sumthin else..well as in the guy area.. me adn dane are sort of friends again.. and well as far as me and aaron go well since the world open their mouths about it... we are i have no idea i think about him and juss get this weird feeling.. i cant even explain it and well 4 me and scott we are juss close friends... and SOME1 else is freakin ignoring me and he has no reason 2... ohhh i hate guys.. well im tired and i gunna go 2 bed.. later guys!!!!     I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!   ----Manda---

Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: usher...so caught up

hey guys wow everything is so crazy.. me and aaron broke up over sum bad shit but guess what this time i actually dont want him back even though it was my fault..yea every1 like ohhhhh again.. well and then apprently 2 every1 im a hoe and im changing.... i guess i am changing because... everything else is changing i dont trust any1 except for like 3 ppl... because it like im taking in everything people are saying some of it i laugh at and other parts juss make me confused.. like i try and say things.. the truth and no one believe's it...i got the gut feeling like im losing my best friends and which ive had for quite awhile...im juss starting to close in like personality wise, i only want couple of close friends and well i want my guy stuff 2 stay with me... i want 2 be alone so that way i dont cause promblems and no one can assume anything...and it weird the things that are happening... i feel like defferent cause beside 3 ppl  NO ONE KNOWS ANYTHING.. unusual..well g2g l8ters guys

---manda--

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Metallica

HEY DUDES!!!! lol  im sitting here packing 4 Indiana....cant wait!!! lol me and briana and anna and Ebony gunna have way too much fun!!! ne wayz me and kate talkedand cleared a few things and kate must i say im really sorry for not seeing the change in you and telling you first... and thanks for actually coming and talking to me about it.... I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!! yesterday aaron stopped by, he gave me the cutest little soccer ball and the softest bunny!!! AND FLOWERS which are so BEAUTIFUL!! i was so happy we were outside playing with it.. it was soo much fun and i swear you could def see the love between us.. we were sooo unbelievably happy.. it sooo confusing sumtimes....: / weird cause thing between us never go the right way as fairytaleish as they should but we still soo in love...and im definitly missing my dms crew right now.... i talked to carrie last night .. I MISS THEM SOO MUCH... miss my kelly, carrie, alex,ariel,sanna,kiara... so SAD..ohhh i found the perfect saying for me and aaron from the movie "THE NOTEBOOK" here it is......(drum Roll...)

"Well that's what we do, we fight. You tell me when I am being an arrogant son-of-a-bitch and I tell you when you are a pain-in-the-ass. Which you are, ninety nine percent of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a two second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing. So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. - The Notebook"

isn't it perfect well gotta run....

*love always* --manda--

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: country

Hey guys.. what is up ohhhhh im so busy now n dayz it's ridiclous i cant wait till i go on my band trip it gunna be so much fun me and briana are sharing a room so we can gossip bout aaron and germaine.. cause we good like that... this on is to you briana,,,, you dont need him and dont woory everything works itself out and i love how you'll talk to me about anything makes me fell soo LOVED lol.... ne ways i went to this ccrist on the cross thing and it was okay it kinda made me think..... and  was with aaron this weekend and well it was a lil bit diferent than any other time cause we juss talked and joked alot and i LOVED it cause  it made me feel so close with him and SO in love with him... which we all kno i am... everyone been like wow you two have been going out for a long time... and im like yep and HOPEFULLY a LOT longer. but ne wayz firday we our offical game for soccer against JF watch us get beat. but it all good.... omgi got the cutest scarf and necklce,earings,ankle braclet and they all match... how exciting... ohhh and i had a lock-in it was okay kinda not my thing def didnt want to be there but it was ok... well goota run and hit up the stores.. lol str8 ganster!!!

*LOVE ALWAYS* - manda boo

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: country

augh i woke up at like freakin 9...and my muscles hurt....omg yesterday i had so much fun on our band trip for festival.... w/ sarah and briona,, we are intresting when we have 2 b together for 6 hours straight... i ate like a pig....a big mac, a hamburger, 2 fries, hersey bar, n drink.... yummy.... i was hungry... lol and ohhhhh that school was ghetto.... but whatever... i so have decided on a new look at life... not make any plans juss do what i have to--school.soocer... commitments and everything else well i juss dont have time for,, so they fit in some time.... cause im so tired and stressed and im juss gunna be like a cloud.... i dunno it kinda hard 2 explain... im debating on whether juss to drop all the extra crap.... so if ne one at school or aaron gets mad cause i dont have time well... i cant help it and it not gunna bother me.. i like being alone anywayz..... ALONE it really fun you guys outta try it!!!

~love always~ manda

Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: martina mcbride... my baby loves me juss the way i am